I've been lying low all week. I've been pretty depressed. I never really got depressed as a teenager much. I don't know why but it seems that I've stockpiled most of it for my twenties. Silly bastard body.
I have my reasons though, a wee nip of giggly crack and the resulting boredom and self esteem kicking that comes from realising you're not that far away from where you thought you were, or to put it in a deep way. I thought I had covered much distance but really I'd been walking in a big giant circle.
You see I need to get out of this vicious cycle (that should have been a clue!) that I'm in. I lie around on the dole feeling cool while my life crumbles around me, then I get a job I hate, then get into a bit of mess and get fired. I need to find something I like only that's not going to happen because any job that's halfway cool is snapped up by someone who's been out after it since they left school and all I get are shite jobs fucking people up (and not a bicep flexed).
Now the Tories are in (that means you Nick Clegg) the civil service in Northern Ireland is going to go to shit and that means more competition on the job market. Fuck it fuck it fuck it!
Hot Baby Roy said I should try temping just to get a view of what jobs are out there but while he says that he sits on the sofa watching suspect kids TV shows and I think he hasn't given up crack at all. I got a bit desperate last week and when he was out I went through his stuff hoping he'd some crack stashed away but he hadn't, nasty mutherfucker. Anyway I'm glad there was none because now I'm keeping shot of that stuff.
I'm a bit older but was in a similiar situation, at least drugs and living wise, to yourself. I've (nearly) made it. You need to start making compromises and seeing reality for what it is.... Unless you're a one in a million Pete Doherty, but who wants to be him in ten years time anyway.
ReplyDeleteMy advice, to get you started, is get the best job you can get (which will be crap) and rent the best accommodation you can afford (which should be OK). You're off the starting block. The clean life is only a few steps away...
Good Luck
please, skirt the crack, even crappy jobs is better than nothing you can do it, we beleive in you you'll be okay
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ReplyDeleteUm... Nick Clegg is from the Lib Dems, David Cameron is a Tory
ReplyDeleteIt won't be pretty when they start laying off civil servants here. pal of mine told me there were over 500 people going for 3 jobs as a street sweeper in the place he works (gov. department). that's a ratio of 166:1. but, when all the unemployed civil servants start walking the streets looking for work expect the lines at the brew to be coming out the door. place'll look like 'dawn of the dead', but instead of going up and down escalators in deserted malls, these zombies will be stumbling from temp agency to temp agency look for employment succor.
ReplyDeleteAnon (both) - Thanks I'm being a good boy from now on.
ReplyDeleteMana - Thanks but I'll give it a pass. I'd only try to come off like the cool teacher and get the piss taken out of me.
Belfast Chick - You may be right technically but you're missing the point with your precision.
Danny - It's gonna be looting and bootings in the near future hopefully some MLAs will get it.
Im in the same boat. Im going to Austraila, a door to door burglar alarm sales man earns £51k in Melbourne. And its not full of depressing belfasters. Book now before its full.
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